Quick side note regarding:

Now I know what to watch on my day off!

Don’t judge it by season 1, when it was still finding its feet. It’s worthy, past whatever scruffy shabbiness of early season 1.

… fairly obviously not. LOL. Key piece of evidence, I’m still alive.

Both accounts use long, structured, paragraphs with somewhat of a scholarly tone. Both often use unsolicited hyperlinks for definitions or references in their paragraphs. Both have an interest in Star Trek.

… Up to that point, I started freaking out, thinking I maybe look a bit like one of their alts. lol. yikes.

… Mushrooms and grass are free, growing all around… So… presumably you mean you have to pay to be touched?

Reminds of when I got dumped, and went out with an air rifle and shot a couple birds (would have been 3, but I missed with the last slug I found). Utterly out of character. I wonder (and doubt) if they (at least yet) likewise feel greatest remorse for their weakest moment [of “hurt people hurt people”].

… And reminds of [in Babylon5] when Lennier had a moment of fail, out of character, ran from saving Sheradin, … and How D’lenn handled it, sympathetic to how we are each susceptible to such moments of fail and we let our worst overtake our better.

Still… another’s capacity for such wise sympathy (or empathy), is no excuse for them.

[Edit: … After being reminded of the specific situation this time though… I strongly doubt that’s even their weakest moment of hurting people; strongly doubt that’s a mere case of a rare moment of letting their worst get the better of their better… given what was initially done (and in which direction!!!). Wardrobe not big enough for all those skeletons [that I imagine, I hope, merely metaphorically].]

Confluence of stress burnout, and character traits.

Is worthwhile to explore both the psychological and societal precursors to such.

… Probably worthwhile looking into narcissism too. Albeit many perspectives on the topic, there are common themes and distinct insights to catch, that are sometimes difficult to really have sink in, so distinct and alient an umwelt exists behind the contrastingly “normal” facade. Until blow-out.

… Probably worthwhile looking into autism too. Maybe AuDHD specifically (whom are the majority). The absence of the socially normativising stuff, from the different neurophysiology, almost like we’re having to do all the work of the cerebelum, the gpu, in the forebrain, the cpu, with the neuronal journeys having more finegrain, less pruning, and fewer main reinforced trunks, and so experience far more of the intricate detail all the way there, and all the way back… it’s not just exhausting in itself, the extra brain power required for all the meta-navigation, only having the intricacies of side roads of working-it-out-now, none of the popular motorways of presumption, but also exhausting from the resultant clashes, and the cassandra syndrome, putting up with a majority who dismiss what you see in preference for their shared reality, regardless of how well it can be seen otherwise… no judgement on who’s right or wrong there, only a consideration of what it’s like, having to live like that. … I can imagine that adds a whole other dimension of burnout to be experienced. And then when having found something that can accommodate you, avails a space where you’re finally allowed the control you need to soothe your fine-grain sensitivities from that different awareness frequency range, gives you that peace, and then that area expands back into the social space, where there’s still a different umwelt clash, each modality appearing stupid to the metrics of the other modality. And in the absence of support nor aptitude in that other’s stubborn paradigm, for your own stubborn paradigm, whether you try to brashly persist in your integrity, or you try to bend to fit, it exhausts, either way. And then melt-downs and rage-attacks and so on can happen. Especially when got so close to it, and identified with it, this new thing you made that availed you such grace, that could save the world, that’s part of you… and then these ungrateful swine come along and threaten it!? Yeah, I can see how such blow-outs could come about.

Especially bad if one has both autism and narcissism. The narcissism would preclude their any will whatsoever to self improvement. They’d have total aversion to accountability. No real introspection, and thus no real regret or apology is possible. Only pretence. If even that. Sometimes the grandiosity slips out of the mask of even the most covert narcissists (and community narcissists, martyr hero narcissists, vulnerable narcissists, etc). Narcissists, especially the true ones, where it has become their personality, and not just a rare incidental moment or rarer trait, in having itpped past the point of introspection, into delusional non-reality in fantasy love of their self image, no longer able to distinguish other people as other people, seeing them only as means to their own ends, and lingering in that, growing more machiavelian, psychopathic, even sadistic and demented. And in a way, a bit of a saving grace for us all, if the autism’s louder than the socially manipulative covert machiavellianisms. Better the devil we can see [because they lack the social aptitude to hide], than the devil we cannot see [because they hide among us, pretending to be the paragons of virtue].

As in not just honest ones for robustness against outages, but, sock puppets?

Oh! Is that maybe why my network choked to a mere double figure kb crawl after I posted about it [~ and pasting the diatribe for posterity, and so others wouldnt have needed visit that]?

I just presumed it was the dozen distro ISO I was downloading at the time too, in a distroholic relapse.

… I’m not really paying attention to all this drama.

Ayurveda, Curry.

I have the worst bullshit job.

Cannot quit, without dying. Disability support. If you do anything that can be construed as able, they cut you off. They send “assessors” to assault and defraud you under pretence they’re checking you’re disabled enough (like that’s not already cruel undeserved punishment if that’s even what they were doing)… and they’ll cut you off. They keep you down, and then blame you, and then hold you up as an icon of hate, smearing you with lies like instead of being the most vulnerable, you’re a professional conman, and they spread this across the paid propaganda “news”, so not only people do not care when they kill you by starvation, freezing, denied medicine, stressed and pained enough to end your own life, they cheer it on, not realising this is supposed to be the social security safeguard that’s there for us each and all, them too, should they fall on hard times too. … And if you try do anything (or even if not), they cut you off. Paid to do nothing, to stay down. Not paid to help get back to strength. And then the hateful, and the callously stupid and ignorant who think they have good intentions, want to throw the baby out with the bathwater and cut you off entirely, like that’d solve it, and the disability would magically disappear, following the same logic of a witch-hunt, same as the fit-to-work scandal’s assessment scam… if the woman drowns, if the benefit claimant dies, they’re innocent. If they do not, then they’re a deceiver to be killed or punished… … The worst bullshit job. There’s nowhere to quit it, from here, in this trap they maintain. I hear some places actually try to help… rather than just increase suffering in negligence, just for their own uptonsinclairian convenience and delusion. They’re just doing their job… blood on their hands.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvRz8HrEVKY

Fun suggestion:

Slip work’s radio a usb stick, surreptitiously, some day, with better tunes and none of the crap.

And (of course) a bigger collection, that won’t loop over the same so soon.

Time to switch to a radio station that’s not bought by some big money agenda?

I recently got back into somafm again, after many many years hiatus.

They’re coming hard for van life too btw.

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. We have to mend this. And we can still mend this.

… I have no camera.

This new CAPTCHA’s prejudicial and exclusionary.

Not to mention grotesquely invasive.

And more time yet wasted tidying, sysadmining, dispensing with bureaucracy, eating, bathing, going to the toilet, socialising, travelling, and sleeping.

I wonder how much of the greed comes as a reaction against the [manufactured] scarcity.

I don’t think it’s all or none. I suspect it the vast majority though.

Even when adjusting for inflation?

definitely a form of addiction

& definitely getting people more entrenched in their groupthink, out of critical thinking ability.

Speaking as one who uses “fancy words”, I can attest, it’s no means to garner respect, and more likely people still won’t respect what you do, and may even respect you less for the fancy words.

Not all infinities are the same size